It breaks my heart to be the bearer of unexpected and tragic news: yesterday. May 8th, my good friend and fellow JD/Papa Winchester nut jdsgirlbev
passed away. She has been battling some severe health issues over the last month, but the doctors were prevailing ... until they weren't.
I don't have a great deal to say at this moment. I'm still reeling from the news. I will say, however, that Bev was a good person with a kind heart and a passionate soul. She was the first person I ran into in SPN fandom who both loved John as deeply and was as passionately outraged at his vilification by the fandom (this was back when the show didn't vilify him, but rather celebrated him as the ferocious, flawed, loving and misunderstood father and man he was/is) as I do/am/continue to be. We spent hours discussing the deplorably wrong-headed thinking regarding John over the years, and she was both John and JD's most vocal advocate in any and every forum she ever ran across (and she ran across a LOT of them!).
And while John was, and always will be, her favorite (as he is, and always will be, mine); she was equally as passionate about JD himself.
I remember, in particular, the war we fought together, her in the lead with a cudgel of words and me bringing up the rear with a razor of wit, over JD's casting as The Comedian in Watchmen
. More than one unsuspecting fanboy found himself in deep, deep shit after unwisely breaking bad online over the "travesty" of casting "Denny Duquette" as the anti-hero of all time, Eddie Blake. Virtual blood was shed over that wrongheaded poppycock more than once --- Bev would scour the internet LOOKING for the fight, not to create conflict, but rather to stumble the kind of demoralizing momentum such uninformed trash talk can create against an actor cast against perceived type in a much beloved role --- and none could have been prouder than Bev when JD lived up to and beyond her passionate advocacy of his predominantly untapped genius for complex antiheroes.
Bev was so passionate, in fact, in her defense of JD and Papa John against any and all comers that she once chided the man himself. In the early days, before fame dictated the need for a lower profile, Bev laid into someone on Facebook representing himself as JD. She told this cheeky fellow he should be ashamed of himself and get a life ... unless he really was JD, in which case, never mind. As it turned out, he was ... was really JD and was charmed by her aggressive defense of him even at the risk of offending him. He responded with a thank you and a friend request. I think that may have been Bev's favorite story: she laughed at herself every time she told it.
I suppose I have more to say about Bev than I thought, even now, in the midst of this devastating news. And if I do, it's because Bev was memorable. She was bold and opinionated and often the antithesis of politically correct. And she was my friend. Still is my friend. I will miss her terribly. Miss chatting with her about life, love, writing and any other damn thing that crossed our minds. Miss tilting at windmills with her in defense of John Winchester, Eddie Blake and JD himself. Miss her humor and her rash statements and her eat-your-face passion on a multitude of subject, but especially John. Always John.
But most of all, I will miss her kindness. Her goodness. Her insistence on being there thru the hard times, always sticking out a hand to help if she even suspected
you might need one. Because jdsgirlbev
was one of the good ones, at fandom and
at life, and we are all the lesser for her passing.
Goodby, my friend. I will miss you always.
(And thank you for letting us know, Andrew. We spoke of you often and I'm sure you know exactly how much you meant to her. But if you don't, you did. The world.)
For Bev, because she loved it: